10 August 2006
fuck!
is it always about you ppl...sho its onli you ppl tat feel like shit?sho other ppl dun have their probs...sho if you fuckheads are down..am i suppose to take all ur shit..and lick your toes...i noe you guys are fucked up..i can tell..i keep quiet and try to go along..dun i hab my own fuck probs..sho its only you tat feels scared insecure alone?huh!im human...i put on a fuck front...as if i hab nothin to care about in this world...does it mean im superman?!you tell me..you are feelin like scared when you are alone..and will cry non stop..i like bein alone?is it...why why...why must it always be you...onli you...i hab my own fuck feelins..probs...anger...sadness..pain...you think i like seein things like tat?you think?you think i like it tat everyone at home is up to each others necks..
i try i try to be as strong...but theres a limit to everyone..i try i try not to add to ur probs...i try not to screw up the family..i try..but does anyone gib a damn...everyone jus looks at me like a punchin bag...i try to help as much as possible..i try..but it always turns out to be my fault...best..
ive asked everyone and anyone i see wit glum faces...angry faces..troubled..how they are..and try to understand..and help...cause i noe tat everyone needs someone to jus listen...shutup and listen..but has anyone asked..me?maybe jus fer the formality..does anyone noe how i feel?you think i like seein ppl...sad...cryin..angry and scared?you think i am tat cold blooded?huh...!am i an animal in all of ur eyes..i noe i disappointed everyone tat im in normal..i noe..im dumb..but you dun have to say it in my face...
i am human too...human...you get it...i have my own troubles..you ppl can sae..youre onli sixteen wat probs can you hab...but fuck..youll neber noe wat ive been through...i keep it all to myself...cause i noe you ppl hab your own troubles...and my probs..i settle by myself...my probs..my responsibility..but i still burden myself wit ur troubles...you think im shit...shit you!ok...you think the family now is ok...screw you..how would you feel if you were sho scared tat the ppl tat made me...dun talk and jus wanna scream at each other...you noe how i feel..i maybe taller..bigger than you all..but im scared and weak...
i jus wished..wishin everythin will go back to the past.when everyone was gd together...
did you see the CRAZY MONKEY???
8/10/2006 09:53:00 pm
