19 October 2006
haze...sick...thick thick phlegme...soundin like a donkey...*cough*
hmmmm....im tired of the things happenin ard me...one prob followed by another...never seems to cease...tired...of feelin shitty...sho i shall jus try my part...and if the other party doesnt wanna do anythin i cant...sho no use ah...hmmm....its like...hmmm....throwin a watermelon to another person but if the person doesnt wanna catch the bloody melon...splat...
ok stupid comparision..but you all get wat i mean...hmmm...
shall kan kai...
ppl..im not as fierce and scary as i look...jus come up to me and smile ya...and say hi..i will to...=)
im tired tat things jus keep happenin...ppl sae and do or in some cases ignore...and not do anythin.empty promises..which hurt...forgive and forget...i can...but wounds take time to heal right...i sound like a i dunno la... but i have feelings...
im a very unhappy angry person inside...all pinned down inside...controllin..ready to blow anytime...and i feel real shitty...furious when theres nothin to be angry bout...sad and depressed whereever i go.but puttin up a false front and crappin.masks up and smile but i dun feel like it.and tat makes me feel worse actin.sho ppl will stop askin.i dun like to share my shit any oh how.its my probs...ill solve it.i dun wanna drag ppl down into my misery.sometimes i call ppl to talk..its jus tat im feelin shitty...and wanna talk to get my mind of things..and not think bout stuff fer a while..smile ppl and be glad you have a 'home' to be with...no matter how hard it is there...be grateful...without ur family you wont be where you are now....its time to patch up the broken parts...i want to be happy again..'be more me' like someone once told me.smilin and enjoyin..laughin and filled wit pure joy...and happiness.problems i cant escape but one thing i can do is face them..break them down solve it and smile..life is life...i have to adapt...the world doesnt revolve and bow down to me..i want to be more like me.happy cheerful and up and jumpin...like i used to...ppl can tie me down...but ill stand....wit GOD by my side...
ive stood tall...i had everythin...it was taken away..in a blink of an eye...poof...nothin...
i dropped flat on the floor...jus lyin there...ppl stepped all over me... i took it...
im tied down...
i care.
i wan to break free stand up and fight again...
shall not fear anymore..
i am who i am..
ANGKAT!!!!!KUAT KUAT!
did you see the CRAZY MONKEY???
10/19/2006 03:46:00 pm
