17 October 2006
tired.
yes ppl...im super tired..match on sat...followed by training on mondae...after sho long.suddenly intensive...has taken me out...my whole body is practically sore...my ass feels sho tight...but actually its jus cramped up...
new coach..englands u18 nationals...boxer...sheesh..tall and big..you should see him man...really big...when he pumped the balls...his chest goes...up down up down..
new coach fixed 4 friendlies....durin the hols and a match against RI beginnin next yr...sheesh...new team...u14 comin up...new hopes i guess...jus hope they train seriously now....
i noe...ive disappointed you and the family...i noe...i noe...i could have gone to the express stream...i noe tat i could have made the family more peaceful...without my nonsense...but all tat i have done was jus a simple cry out to you tat your son isnt wat he seems to be...he feels unlovable...alone and angry....im sorry. i decided to change when i was in sec 2...my grades when up...i worked hard in cca too...and other activities....fer wat?they were never fer myself...its sho tat youll notice and be proud of me...fer once....atleast if im not as lovable as my sis and bro...be proud..but youre not.when i lost it all...when teachers and frens took away this oppurtunity fer me to break out and make you all proud...i didnt noe wat to do next...my grades were up there...still you still shunned....and didnt care...keep scoldin me sayin tat i not touch my books...i played rugby...why...cause of you...cause i once heard u talkin to Godpa how much you wanted one of ur sons to play...sho i tagged along in RI.when you coach...set up a team in my sch...till now i play...but wat you sae to me..i guess im the outcast...the accident..like once mama told me...tat you guys didnt intend to to have me...sho im sorry im me...bringin all the pain and anguish to the family...although i tried as hard..it was never enough...blacksheep..lookin at my siblings who sleep in nice bedrooms and furnished.. i stay in a abandoned office room wit a matress on the floor...im sorry.
did you see the CRAZY MONKEY???
10/17/2006 11:53:00 am
